Sangak

Sangak
Another sleepless night passes, one with memories of you. I don't know why you remain so present so vividly alive so far away geographically and emotionally, maybe some times you feel my presence too or is this only my wishful thinking.
People here are extremely judgmental perhaps its direct results of repression and 30percent unemployment. They are so quick in liking and then hating you. Hate not love, general loss of compassion for life, abuse and neglect not love in relation ships. Generally hateful and uncomfortably numb to what goes on around them. Strange voice from loud speakers spew dusty dogma from Arabian sand dune, you can easily taste the blood and sand in your mouth.
Last week I had an opportunity to go abroad with a relative who is hated for her wealth. Immediately I was scorned and cast aside almost as I f I had collaborated with the enemy. I'd like to see these folks under similar position of power and wealth. I've seen too many of them hiding in ugliness of others. I've seen them brag how they never compromise and yet when confronted by easy chair of power, wealth and comfort, how they melt like snow on a sunny day. Twofaced back stabbing compatriots relative of mine, I guess when you are invaded by hordes of repressive nomadic tribes you have to hide any sign of intelligence to save your life you cheat lie to save your skin for another day. This was collective psychological effect of a desert dwelling culture over taking a once flourishing and civilized nation. Wednesday I went to get my favorite bread its flat bread like most Persian bread but this one is baked in an over with surface of pebbles. Hence it's called Sangak or bread made on pebbles.
Gradually price of bread which is subsidized by government is going up. Think of it skyrocketed like most basic necessities of life. Once in a while you hear some one in line complain and almost every one node in agreement with what has been said, how ever rarely any one says anything in fear of not knowing thinking maybe the one who is voicing or protesting the high prices or government might be a member of security forces.
This is life after leaving you here in a place which could be the most wonderful place on this planet with its natural beauty and people who might once again be as great as they were prior to Arab invasion.